Thursday 15 December 2011

It's that reflective time of year.


Its December 15th. It's that reflective time of year. The time when everyone seems to look back on what they've achieved or what they haven't achieved. When people start thinking about what they want to change about themselves.

I've got a few regrets this year.

The biggest thing I regret this year is going back with a guy after a night out. I've never had a one night stand and we didn't do anything but it still made me feel vile the next day. It still made me feel like I'd sold myself short.

I just don't know how people do it. I mean, I did kind of like this guy but not enough to have ever considered going back with him.

And in NOT sleeping with him I still landed my self the 2.10 am texts. When there's clearly no girls left in the club taking his fancy. What does that make me? A last resort booty call? JOG ON.
It makes me part angry, part offended, part completely bloody moronic for even thinking of going there.

The strange thing is rather than thinking, ' Oh man I got him completely wrong what a d-bag' I'm thinking ' Oh shit he's got me completely wrong, why am I such a d-bag?'. Weird that.

The crux of it is that he obviously has no respect or me. And in not falling out of a club and onto his penis I think I DO deserve a bit of respect. So I shouldn't have gone back there. That is a lesson learnt. And I'm pretty good at learning from my mistakes.

In other news I've had a really good week this week. Biki has been down and oh my life there has been some mischief . Two highlights probably being that I snogged a 34 year old and Biki smooched a just turned 16 year old. Considering these are the parts I'm willing to share with the world you can only imagine what I've been banished from telling you.

The week's consisted of drinking and then lying in bed all day. I've now got extremely itchy feet and need to get out of the house. But the queen of slug castle (Biki) is stitched to the bed.

I hope 2012 will be as good at 2011. I've had a really great year. I know exactly where I want to be and I know what I've got to do to get there. Nailing this dissertation needs to be up there at the top of that list. Graduating preferably also up there.

Maybe next year I'll try and be more ladylike. I make this resolution every year but I never really follow through with it. I doubt there's any point in even making that pledge. I like camping, baggy jumpers, rock music and I hate wearing make-up. In order to fulfil my new years resolution I've got to pretty much change everything about my self.

Maybe it will just come with time. And I have plenty of time. I'm 20, the world is my oyster.
Also SO SO SO excited to become an aunty!! YAAAAY BABY!

That's all for now
Jojo xxx