And oh, those Summer Naiiii-iiiii-ts

Unfortunately my life is not as exciting as this title may lead you to believe.

Since packing up my stuff from my little house in Bournemouth last Monday I've been back in Cardiff at my Dad's.

Since I've been here I've done nothing but go for runs, eat and read.

So nothing interesting has happened really. But I do feel really rested and calm. I'm excited about going back to Tenby tomorrow to see my pals, my Muma and to get working and making some money.

The other night I was sat drinking red wine with my step-mum and we got talking about one night stands.

I've never had one and find it a very strange concept. It's quite scary having someone see you naked.

She was shocked that I hadn't spent my two years at uni having wild nights out followed by wilder mornings in.

I don't know if it's just me but I worry that, even if I never see that person again, they'll think little of me- that I'm easy.

My friend who went travelling last year told me she had her wild times out there, with people who she could only really have one night stands with before she moved along to another country. She thinks it's important for me to have a few aswell.

Do I need to loosen up? I feel like I might leave uni, meet a man, get settled and then one day wake up and have itchy feet. That I'll be itching to experience this disposable way of sex.

I'm newly single. It is, I suppose, the ideal time to try that sort of thing. But I just feel like it isn't the right time. Like I might regret it all.

Oh I so don't want to turn into my mother. Being so wary about things like this, keeping all men at 7 arms lenghts.

6 is my magic number and I think that is a respectable place to be at 20. I don't particularly want to get to ten, ever.

Is that realistic? Is that a stupid prudish way to look at life? I never want to be embarrassed about my number. I never want to be tempted to lie.

Maybe I need to try and get over the fear of what boys will think, what boyfriends will think when that fateful question is asked and just try and figure out whether I want to give it a whirl or not.

That's all for now. Happy Fathers Day to all the papa's in the world!

Jojo xxx